Venting

Hello once again! Things have changed for me dramatically since I made an entry. I could start by saying that life as an adult sucks but that is not always true. Life is what you make of it. I believe that those little mistakes made along the way are just precursors to a bigger problem waiting to rear its ugly deformed head. Some of us blind to the obvious cannot see those minute mishaps for the we are blind t the fact that we a re only human. In the eyes of the immortals in our lives we always fail at something if not everything and it is up to the human to overcome their personal demons and persevere. Here lately I don't want to be me or this person I have become. I can't be
alone here anymore...I don't want to be a roommate to my estranged spouse...I am lonely....I am tired.I am done!

Holiday Depression

As the years go by they always seem to bring about those deep and dark secrets you don't want anyone to know.

For those few that read my entries I have already begun the spiral down that twisted dark stairway to holiday hell.

Silence is golden but also it can speak volumes.

I want to be truly free and thankful for the little things in my life but here recently it is getting harder and harder to be thankful or grateful for anything.

Not having those who you truly love and care for not be here on those special holy days is very stressful and demanding on my soul.

I do not wish this feeling on anyone.

I would rather have all of my wisdom teeth removed in the same day.

So, after all of that boo-hooey... I'll leave you with few of the sayings from my notebook :

1)    Character is what you are in the dark.
2)    Communication is depositing a part of yourself in another person.
3)    There would far fewer divorces if more people felt at home at home.
4)    Honesty is the best policy but nowadays there are less policy holders than there used to be.
5)    To understand is to pardon.
6)    Those who give too much attention to trifling things become generally incapable of great ones.

And finally, ask yourself this question.

7)    Will this all matter a year from now?

It's Been a While

I wish I knew what I know now 2 years ago.
I would not be here in Baltimore.
I would have a decent job, even though I hate wiping 'old people' ass.
I'd still have my car although it is a piece of shit.
I'd would still have my one bedroom apartment with my stuff on the walls.
I would still eat real bacon.
I would still be smoking newport 100s.
I would be able to draw or paint when and where I want to.
My kid would still be in my presence.
I love Baltimore, Maryland!

Ode To A Peanut Butter Cookie

Mouth:     My soft and chewy peanut buttery cookie where oh art thou?
P.B. Cookie:      Here on thy plate of sustenance my glutenous adversary!
P.B. Cookie:      Why waste time with the pleasantries....engulf me with warm moistness of
your oratory orifice...Envelope me with your tantalizing taster....devour me!  I can't wait any longer to have you
cover me with your gaping,, dripping hot mouth.....
Mouth:     Your wish is my command my love, hold on tight my delicate morsel of peanutty devilment!

I going to make some peanut butter cookies now!!!!!!!!!!!!!-Peace.

Late entry.......

Life has a way of letting you know that you are not always in control.  Life happens.  I have another quote again that I believe sums up the past weeks since my last entry.

"It is my privilege to profit by the experience of others, but I must live my life face the trails and again the victory alone. "

Til next time-Peace

Post #4

Another day almost done..... and here I am writing contributing my two cents to the unknown faceless masses!
It is hard to write about just anything .  I wish I could win 365 million dollars, I wish my hair would grow, I wish I was 5 inches taller, I wish I was financially stable, I wish I was mentally stable, I wish I could stop wishing!  With that being said I'll leave you with yet another gems of wisdom from my notebook.....

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony."

Until next time~Peace!

Entry #3

Well, it is Monday again. (whoopee!) 

I had a great birthday weekend. I have a busy week ahead of 

me. But I can handle it....its late and I wanted to put in an entry 

before I forgot. Here is another nameless tidbit of wisdom I have

stashed in  my notebook.... 

"Our best preparation for tomorrow is the proper use of today."

Until next time~Peace